i'm confused. everything's changing. i might not like that.

she
saw
something
in
his
eyes
that
made
her
strong
enough

oh i'm so tired of all the things that are happening right now. my life's such a mess lately. one of my best friends isn't interested in my friendship anymore. i started to think that maybe she never really needed me and that she wasn't worth my care and friendship. and besides that i started to have feelings for my best friend, let's say, a month ago. at home nothing really seems to work and schools out for two months. yeah, i should be happy but i actually was when i went to school every day. i never thought i'd ever think about school like this! because this year we changed classes. my class last year was really awesome, and i was afraid that this year wouldn't be like that. i was afraid that i wouldn't make new friends and so. and i had a really tough time at the beginning. i hated it. i wanted to go back to my old class. but at the end of the year it finally felt good. i had so much fun the last couple of months and i really don't want to say goodbye to the past half year! - yeah, next year i'm going to have another new class. but this class i will have for like 4 years. damn i hope it's going to be okay!

lies

i never thought
i would be that easy to replace
i always thought
i was something special for you,
but i was wrong, obviously.
because now i realize,
it was all just a lie
you never really needed me.


~ this is not about some
lost love or something, no.
it's about my best friend
who kind of let me fall..