i'm confused. everything's changing. i might not like that.

she
saw
something
in
his
eyes
that
made
her
strong
enough

oh i'm so tired of all the things that are happening right now. my life's such a mess lately. one of my best friends isn't interested in my friendship anymore. i started to think that maybe she never really needed me and that she wasn't worth my care and friendship. and besides that i started to have feelings for my best friend, let's say, a month ago. at home nothing really seems to work and schools out for two months. yeah, i should be happy but i actually was when i went to school every day. i never thought i'd ever think about school like this! because this year we changed classes. my class last year was really awesome, and i was afraid that this year wouldn't be like that. i was afraid that i wouldn't make new friends and so. and i had a really tough time at the beginning. i hated it. i wanted to go back to my old class. but at the end of the year it finally felt good. i had so much fun the last couple of months and i really don't want to say goodbye to the past half year! - yeah, next year i'm going to have another new class. but this class i will have for like 4 years. damn i hope it's going to be okay!

lies

i never thought
i would be that easy to replace
i always thought
i was something special for you,
but i was wrong, obviously.
because now i realize,
it was all just a lie
you never really needed me.


~ this is not about some
lost love or something, no.
it's about my best friend
who kind of let me fall..

Sun is making me happy :D

humm, i'm really tired right now,
but i'm a little bit bored so i decided to write this blog about paris. i'm not going to describe all of what we visited, because i mostly don't know the correct names anymore :'D

yesterday all the pupils of the second year of my school went to paris
for a day. we had do sit 5.5 hours in the bus before we arrived. i didn't mind that because i love busrides with my friends :'D we took a lot of pictures, listened music and we laughed our asses off sometimes, i loved it! finally we arrived. my first impression? huge buildings, a lot of people and a lot of traffic ! seriously, we were at this point where all of the cars, busses and cyclists where driving so dangerous that it was almost scary to be there.

one of the first things we went to see was the Eiffel Tower and we decided to climb it. sadly enough it rained, but damn i'm never climbing it again! we were really exhausted when we reached the second floor and decided not to go to the top. but because of all these stairs, i was still happy that i did it, the view was AMAZING! really, so so beautiful!

after that we took the metro and went to Montmartre, more stairs! my legs were almost falling off, they hurted so much, but again, the view was amazing, it was worth it. we had some free time here but actually we didn't did that much, just some walking around and stuff.

i think it was after our visit to Montmartre that we had to take the bus home. we were a little bit tired but still it was only 6 o'clock.. we watched this really scary movie, disturbia and at one point everybody was laughing at me because i screamed, that was a funny moment though ;d the last half hour on our way home, i decided to use my jacket as a pillow and tried to get some sleep, i closed my eyes but because of my ipod i still heard parts of the movie.

when the movie was done, we also were back at school. the parents of Joelle brought me home.
i fell asleep in a minute :D

paris was nice but i think it's a little bit overrated ~

I'M GOING TO PARIS TOMORROW, WHOA.